3/21/11

Sometimes I honestly cant take life anymore.
between being yelled at by my "friends" and always messing up things with my family, i honestly dont know where to turn to actually do stuff right.
But ill never give up. cus ik there is 1 person out there who makes me happy,  1 person who holds my hand when im sinking down, 1 person who may grow far from me one day but right now is closer then ever. and that is my best friend.

But even better then that person... i have the hope of one day this world will be destroyed and i will be able to be with God and talk to him and THAT will be the happiest day Ever!

So i just need to keep up hope, even when im being yelled at, and teased, and when everything is tumbling down, ik that the 2 most important people in my life are there for me, whenever.

<3333 I love you

A letter to you.

Dear D.
Lately I've been having a really tough time with life.
tonight i didnt feel like i could take it anymore. but you helped me through.
idk how. but you seem to always be there at the moment i need you.
You treat me nicely, you dont judge, you care, but your not over caring... yah you know what i mean.
honestly i wont get mushy or anything cus thats not what our relationship is DUHH! but i just wanted to say that i am veryy thankful that i met you 9 years ago, and im glad you have stuck with me through anything and everything. and your just down right awesome.
I love you in a "your like the best guy ive ever known and i am SOOO syked we are friends" way :)

a;oihaheoaihg ~ emily


p.s. ...toes.... <33

Making Mistakes

Lately I have been making a lot of mistakes.
Some i find to be not that big a deal. others are life changing.
sometimes it is very difficult to know when you are doing something wrong that is hurting your friends or family.
The other day i found out that i had made a Big mistake with out even knowing it. I felt and still feel bad. but I apoligized for hurting that person, and i was forgiven. I also asked God to forgive me. so I shouldnt feel bad anymore because i have been forgiven.

So all im really attempting to convey here is that when we make mistakes we should ask for forgivness and then when and if we are forgiven we should let it go. dont rehash everything you have ever done wrong. I do that to much and well i fail at almost everything so i am always feeling guilty about something. but i know that when i do let stuff go... it feels extremely good.

As my mother used to say, "take that guilt, wrap it up in a nice pretty package, send it to God and forget about it, for it is in Gods hands now."